Tuesday, June 21, 2011

In hopes that you read this...

As I sit at your desk typing this lovely little blog, I notice the many things that you have given me.  My mind wanders and my chest feels so light as I can't wipe the smile from my face.  Though times have gotten hard for you I can only hope that I can give you the same affection and feeling of security that you have given me for the past nine months.  As the stress continues to build in our lives, I am so happy that the stress is not between us.  Before you, any amount of stress that I had would go between my heart and the hearts of others.  You do not allow that to happen... you smile and hide any emotions that may add to my despair which, unfortunately, adds to yours.  Why do you attempt to keep me sane through such extremes? I want to know your stress and pain as you know mine.  Let me know the troubles that you carry and through those may I understand how to better understand you and help you through such terrible times.  Though now I help in financial matters, know that the most important thing I want to do is help you through all the emotion turmoil that you encounter.  I also want you to know that you have done nothing but the same for me.  You give me the courage to write when I know I do not have the words that you possess, the ability to feel emotions that I do not understand, and the teachings that I need so that I can become a better person.

Thank you, my love.  I write this in hopes that you read this.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Worst job? Perhaps.

So I ran away from here for a while.... My bad.  Here I am again!

I know my blog isn't that thrilling but please bear with me.  I'll do my best!

Recently I entered the wonderful world of fast food.  The word wonderful is a lie that they told me when I entered it. "You'll find that after a little while, you'll feel this is one of the easiest jobs you will ever have!" ...another lie.

It probably would have been easy... if my managers weren't complete boobs.

So now I am searching for a new job or transfer.  However with the support of the man of my life and my dearest sister, things will work out.  I am hopeful the three of us can actually move out soon! That's a big hope though... I'm going with the flow like normal.

For the end... Remember:

It takes a lot of guts to fix something that seems so trivial... but if your happiness is on the line, even the slightest bit, go for it.

You are loved for I love you!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Day 02 →Where you’d like to be in 10 years.

Continuing the list... Where would I like to be 10 years from now?

Oh I really don't think about that....

If I had to say, I would probably hope to become a teacher... A really good one by then.  I would also like to be married but I'm sure all girls want that before they turn 30... right?  I also want to do more with my art.  I'm wanting to start working on backgrounds and general things like that. (Have any tips?)  I want my art to mean something to someone, whether that's my singing or my art. 

That's really all I can think about... I don't really dwell on what I want to happen, I just let it happen.

Take care and hopefully what you would like to happen to you will happen!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Day 01 → Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

I stole this list from Weelow and I wanted to see what I would write! Hopefully it will be informative.

My current relationship is actually very nice right now.  I've been through many, some have been quite terrible, some have been stressful, nothing like this.


I had always been reserved when wanting to find a relationship, get to know the person, become best friends and then see if it will work.  That was usually my strategy.  This time it was different.  I had worked with him at my old job once, I thought he was cool, then I quit my old job.  I didn't see him after that, except for a few visits and purchases.  I then saw that he added me on facebook, my shock could not be contained as I immediately began establishing a friendship with this man I had only met once.  Our relationship grew online, but not the way I had usually done things.  It just... bloomed into what it is now without my consent.  At the time I was with my previous boyfriend whom we had shared many fights and was going through so much stress it was tearing me apart.  I did my best to end the feelings I had gotten and focus on the relationship I had.  It wasn't fair to him that I had started liking another and I wouldn't let it get in the way.  Soon... I turned to my friend for advice on my relationship at the time.  Everything I had tried was not fixing what was wrong and was not changing us back to what we had.  He ended the relationship thinking I would ask for us to keep trying, I didn't.  Finally it was mutual, we are still friends but I feel I have still wronged him.  The crush I had grew even more for this man I had really only seen a few times.  We soon began dating and he told me he had fallen in love which made me worry.  Could I really fall for a man this early?  I found out yesterday... I am in love with him.  I love him for a lot of mushy reasons but I won't go into detail.  I don't want anything to go wrong in this relationship and I do want it to last.

The only thing I can hope for is that he continues to accept me for my flaws and my quirks.  I don't think my love for him will change anytime soon.  I'm still nervous about what will happen between us, but I know that everything will work for the best.

May you be happy throughout your relationship, if you are single, I hope that you enjoy your life and don't rush a relationship.  Let it grow, it's better that way. :)

Friday, January 7, 2011

Why hello there!

Given the fact that I don't occasionally blog (not that I ever have) I decided it would be a nice little relaxation technique to try.  Hopefully my blog can entertain you.  I do plan on posting different items on here of, but we'll see how this goes.

My name is Alexandria and I was born and raised in Las Vegas, NV.  Hard to believe right?  Trust me, I grew up with the comments, "Were you born in a casino?" so please keep those to yourself.  I don't have anything exciting to tell you about my life, all I know is that I grew up quite nicely.  I love to sing and I also enjoy drawing.  I look to improve both, however art seems to be difficult for me.  I see so many of my friends do great things with their art work that I could never do.  I know that practice does help, but I hope to expand my work and actually work on drawing out a story I am creating called Black Ribbon.  Singing is a huge passion for me though, don't ask me why though because I have no idea.  The rush that I feel when I sing and the happiness it brings me is just completely overwhelming.  I have a full seven years of choir experience but I don't think I'm at a professional level.  I wish that I could take my singing into a career but I would really like to teach.  Teaching children brings me so much happiness, I can't imagine it ever doing anything different.  I am almost finished with my college degree so soon I will be able to teach here in Las Vegas and maybe even elsewhere.

I'm pretty boring.  Nothing really interesting about me.  However, I'm happy.  I only wish that my friends are happy as well. :)

Always smile and know that someone loves you, even if that someone is lovely little ol' me!